willingly = being willing. Greek. hekon. Only here and Rom_8:20.
against my will = being unwilling. Greek. akon. Only here.
a dispensation, &c, = I have been entrusted with (Greek. pisteuo.App-150.) a stewardship. I am therefore in duty bound to fulfill it.
dispensation = stewardship, or administration, the work of an oikonomoa (1Co_4:1). Elsewhere, Luk_16:2, Luk_16:3, Luk_16:4. Eph_1:10; Eph_3:2. Col_1:25. 1Ti_1:4.